Sunday, December 11, 2011

Do you think hes using me?!?!?

So there is this guy at school and for the sake of this story making sence im gonna call him Andrew. So this guy is a total player and a flirt with pretty much everyone. He started flirting with me when he met me and I fell for him, hard. He told me he liked me and he asked me if i dated. i said no. i dont date because its a part of my religion, my parents, and for the fact that im 12. theres no way i need to be in a realationship at 12! So after he found out that i dont date he still asked me out. i told him no. after that he didnt really talk to me that much. i cant figure out if he was using me or just didnt want to take the rejection. because hes been rejected before. anyway, that was a while ago. i hadnt really talked to him in like a month. then yesterday our school went bowling. he sat in the seat behind me and started talking to me. but he also started rubbing my back and getting kinda physical. i grabbed his arm and put it on the seat and i was like hands to yourself andrew. he told me again that he liked me and he kept doing it. one time he grabbed onto my bra strap and said ooo i got something there. i was like andrew stop hands to yourself! he stopped but i had my hand on the back of my seat and he grabbed it and held my hand. i let him because i think i still have strong feelings for him. so i held his hand for a while. he asked me when i would date him and i said in a few years. he said when i would he wanted me in a car alone with him in the dark. i just rolled my eyes and i was whatever. then later i was putting on some chapstick and he was like oh i want some of that get a little action. i just rolled my eyes at him. i know its pretty obvious that he wants to get physical with me. when we actually got off the bus and started bowling he came and sat next to me. i was knda nervous just because he was moving kinda fast and also ive never really had a guy act like that around me. he asked me if i was uncomfortable with a guy that liked me sitting next to me. i said no and he said are you sure you seem a little nervous. i said i gues i am a little bit. he said he could go over by his friends if i wanted and i said no stay cuz i did want him to stay i was just a little nervous. the jeans i was wearing yesterday had like some jewels and sequins on the upper thigh and he kinda started messing with them. i just kinda put my hand on his to sorta make him stop cuz it was just to fast.we held hands for a little while again. then he put his hand on my lower back. i grabbed his hand and said to much andrew. he was said a little to much or just stop. i said its just to much just cool it a bit. so he started messing with my hand and we were holding hands. he asked me if i was comfortable holding hands because he could stop if i wanted him to. i said i was cool with it. but then we had to stop holding hands because a teacher came over and we didnt wanna get in trouble. we were sitting right next to each other the whole time and our legs were touching. it was time to go and i got up to put my bowling shoes away. he asked me if i liked him. i said i did but its just hard to let my guard down knowing he acts like this with everyong. he said i know im a flirt but when im in an actual relationship i stay faithful to that person till its over. then he just looked me right in this eye and i knew he wanted me to date him. i just said andrew im sorry but i just dont date. he said i know. then he said he wanted to sit by me on the bus on the way back. i didnt end up sitting next to him cuz we got on at different times. after i got off the bus i wasnt in a very good mood because my friend who not alot of people like at our school got in another fight with the school bully. on the way up the stairs to get to our lockers he was behind me and he was like he come here. so i went over by him and he said are you ok? i just was like o if people dont like her why cant they just leave her alone!!! and i told him i was just in kinda a bad mood. he just giggled and was like well ill talk to you later then. cuz it was time to go. i guess my question is do you think hes using me? or do you think he actually likes me?

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